life is more than that......

2004-03-20T18:11:00.000+08:00

BESOK tiba lah masa untuk kita mengundi, jgn lupa pada tanggungjawab kita dan kewajipan kita pada negara. Banyak yg perlu diambil kira sebelum kita membuang undi kita.Pilih PARTI atau CALON???? pada pendapat aku tak tau lah betul ker tidak, ramai yg mengundi berdasarkan parti, tak kesah siapapun calon yg diletakkan mereka pasti undi. sebagai pemerhati, aku lihat pilihanraya 1999 telah banyak mengubah minda rakyat kita. kita tidak lagi mengundi secara membabi buta tanpa mengira apa isu yang dibentangkan. pilihanraya banyak membuka mata rakyat tentang politik. kalau dulu tak payah pilihanraya pun takper kita dah tau saper menang..BN lah aper lagi. tapi sekarang mungkin tidak. ada bagusnya kerana ahli politik sekarang lebih berhati hati dari segala aspek bicara mahupun tingkah laku.
Dari segi strategi pilihanraya, aku berpendapat penduduk kawasan luar bandar lebih mudah dipengaruhi dengan meletakkan calon tempatan. Pada aku calon tempatan lebih memberikan impak yg lebih besar tehadap pengundi kerana calon ini lebih mengetahui permasalahan yg dialami oleh penduduk tempatan. mudah dipengaruhi maksud aku kepada meraka yang berfikiran terbuka bukan nyer hardcore parti. Pada aku org yang hardcore parti susah nak di tembusi. buat camner pun dia tetap BN atau PAS.
Pada aku, aku bukanlah hardcore parti dan aku pula tinggal di kawasan bandar KL. jadi tiada adun. segala kemajuan akan tetap aku kecapi, yer lah dah duduk bandar. jadi aku harus memilih bardasarkan parti. hanya ada 2 parti yang relevan pada aku iaitu BN dan PAS. pada aku KEADILAN tidak begitu relevan ia hanya serpihan BN pada aku. Namun begitu di kawasan KL, ada kawasan yg PAS tidak meletakkan calon tapi diletakkan KEADILAN disebabkan gabungan pembangkang. anyway, pada aku ia begitu mudah utk aku memilih. arus kemajuan tetap akan dtg ke tempat aku walau siapa yg dipilih jadi aku harus memilih berdasarkan manifesto ataupun asas sesebuah parti itu. aku memilih PAS, kenapa???? mudah pada aku. jika ada satu parti yang terang-terangan berjuang berlandaskan ISLAM sepenuhnya dan terbukti dengan ramai ALIM ULAMAK di dalam parti tersebut, aku sebagai seorang muslim harus menyokongnya. Bukanlah BN tidak islamik, tetapi ia tidak mengambil islam secara total. ia hanya ambil yang perlu. tidak perlu aku berhujah panjang, isu hukum hudud kenapa takut akan perlaksanaannya??? sudah sah di dalam al quran dan hadis HUDUD itu hukum ALLAH. jadi kenapa perlu menolaknya.
Aku bukanlah alim sgt ataupun nak tunjuk alim, cuma aku tidak mahu satu hari nanti aku di soal kenapa aku tidak membantu atau menyokong satu golongan yang memperjuangkan islam sedangkan aku seorang muslim. Mengundi PAS pada aku adalah jln yang termudah membantu golongan ini. Insyaallah dengan pertolongan ALLAH, niat yang suci, bukan wang ringgit, mereka ini akan diberi ganjaran mungkin tidak di dunia tapi di akhirat nanti. INSYAALLAH.....

2004-03-18T01:00:00.000+08:00

enuff abt pilihanraya. just tengok jer la saper yg menang. this year election not so much of issue but i feel so excited coz 1st time nak vote ni. anyway aku tak nak citer pasal election this time. aku nak citer pasal kawan aku ni. dia ni pompuan dah kawin dan ada anak satu. bukan nak citer pasal status dia, tapi nak cerita pasal her attitude towards things or whatever. she is very simple lady. dia ni jenis tak kisah. easy going n very friendly. yg aku herankan, takder la heran sgt tapi pada aku org macam dia akan mempunyai hidup yg lebih mudah dan happy i guess. pada dia dia tak nak pikir apa yg buruk akan terjadi atau berwaspada abt anything. di tak kesah pasal impian dia. pada dia kalau ada ada la, kalau tak dapat tak per.aku bukanlah nak kritik atau pun aper tapi aku tak boleh hidup tanpa impian. pada aku impian is very important. itu yg akan menjadikan hidup kita ada arah tuju. we live in this world only once so why wasted. maybe i too ambitious. tapi apa erti kehidupan tanpa impian dan berusaha kearahnya. dpt mengejar impian atau tidak itu kita berserah setelah kita berusaha dan doa. itu kita namakan takdir. tapi jika kita mempunyai sikap tak kisah, apa driving force kita utk hidup. yer lah lain org lain pendapat. tapi aku rasa org seperti ini lebih mudah menjalani kehidupan mereka. kerana they take things simple. kalau ada, adalah tak dapat pun takpe. walau apapun aku hidup utk mengejar impian. yg lain aku berserah...
wassalam.....

2004-03-14T05:03:00.000+08:00

memandangkan pilihanraya tgh hangat diperkatakan sekarang. aku pun ada pandangan aku sendiri terhadap parti politik yg ada. aku bukanlah pro kerajaan ataupun pembangkang. tapi pada aku kedua-duanya penting dlm memainkan peranan dlm politik negara.cuba bayangkan kalau negara ini tiada pembangkang, wah sesedap rase sahaja BN mentadbir negara tanpa check n balance. tiada lagi demokrasi yg tinggal hanya diktatorship sahaja yg ada. pada aku pembangkang penting dlm sesebuah kerajaan.

aku lebih suka memperkatakan ttg parti PAS dan BN, pada aku parti lain sekadar memenuhi kota jer...dua parti ini sahaja pada aku mempunyai landas perjuangan yg lebih jelas. parti KEADILAN pada aku sama seperti BN cuma mereka memperjuangkan pemimpin lain itu sahaja. boleh la dikatakan ia serpihan BN. tidak mustahil satu hari nanti ia bergabung kembali dgn BN. kesian kat wan azizah sebab terjun ke bidang politik sebagai bidang terjun. yer la isteri mana yg boleh membiarkan sahaja suami di aniaya.

antara PAS dan BN, yg membezakan hanya satu perkara yg selalu menjadi isu iaitu agama ISLAM. pada aku PAS secara telus lebih memperjuangkan ISLAM. bukan lah bermakna BN tidak memperjuangkan ISLAM, tapi mereka hanya mengambil separuh sahaja tidak secara keseluruhan. kadang-kadang bila berbicara pasal agama ini, bukanlah nak cakap aku pandai pasal agama tapi setiap wakil BN harus berwaspada bila mengeluarkan hujah mereka. Hujah mereka itu kengkadang menunjukkan betapa jahil / cetek pengetahuan mereka terhadap agama cukup kalau dengar mereka berhujah pasal hukum hudud. tapi pada aku yg lebih penting di sini kelancangan kata kata mereka itu boleh menjatuhkan mereka kpd murtad. sebab itu pada aku kalau tak cukup ilmu didada jgn cuba berhujah sembarangan, jgn hanya ikut logik kerana ia boleh memakan diri sendiri. its very obvious sekarang BN banyak meletakkan calon yg mempunyai pendidikan agama yg lebih dalam. strategi yg baik dan juga kepimpinan PM kita sekarang yg berpersonaliti lebih islamik. selamat mengundi.....

2004-02-23T15:04:00.000+08:00

Hampir 2 bulan aku dah tak update blog ni, mungkin sebab life is kinda busy dengan kejer, kawan baru (heheh), social gathering dan banyak lagi. life is quite happening for me as at this moment. anyway, dlm masa 2 bulan ni banyak perkara berlaku dlm hidup aku. kalau nak tulis panjang la jugak, semuanya memberi makna dlm hidup aku. walaupun aku tak tulis dlm my own blog i still follow my favourite blog, cuma malas nak tulis jer sekarang ni.

sekarang ni aku join gym, mungkin ada terpengaruh skit dengan TK (takdekejer.blogspot.com). aku memang dah lama nak join. tapi yer la mungkin financial tak mengizinkan lagi. antara sebab utama aku join ialah to exercise yerlah utk kehidupan yg lebih sihat hehehheh. aku selalu takder kawan biler nak ajak joging atau main games. kawan ader tapi kengkadang time tak mengizinkan. so selalu end up dengan melepak, hisap rokok, tengok tv yang kengkadang melemaskan aku. sometimes u need more oxygen into your brain. so bila kita exercise, ko akan rasa penat dan ur head starts to spin kira tahap pening skit la. part tu yg aku paling suka. u really feel oxygen masuk kat kepala hotak kita of coz la thru blood. u feel fresh and energetic. thats what i need. so i decided to join gym, perit skit la nak membayor tapi i willing to do that if it can give me somethings that i really need. bila kat gym, ada semangat skit nak exercise sebab ramai org exercise. tak yah tunggu kawan, i can make new frens...hehhe
so here i am new gym guy...i even got addicted to it....kalau tak, rasa badan lemah sgt...
oklah i rase cukup la takat ni..nanti aku tulis lagi pasal kawan baru yg aku kenal ok...
cau cin cau....

2004-01-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

well kinda interesting quiz i try it, my result shows as below. so for u out there why dont u try it. very simple quiz...gtg..

2004-01-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
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2004-01-05T23:38:00.000+08:00

susah betul kalau nak kawan banyak sgt term and condition. i prefer to accept ppl as it is but sometimes i cant stand it biler banyak sgt benda yg tak boleh buat biler hang out or whatever. RIMASSSSS. at last aku cakap ngan mamat tu, camnilah kalau dah susah sgt nak kawan ngan ko ni, tak payah la kawan kan senang. lepas tu dia tak call aku lagi.. aku pun lebih senang.. asyik nak jaga hati dia jer letih gak.. bukan nya awek ker balak ker... kawan pun banyak term.. ish banyak songeh betul..tapi sekarang aku dapat seorg kawan baru yg best.. we really enjoy being together.. he got everything i want..matured talk, good look and cool... he said the same to me..best giler..dah lama dah takder kawan rapat rasanya...sumer banyak dah kawin...anyway saper yg ada kawan tapi banyak sgt term and condition...forget abt it... move on... ramai lagi bersepah nak kawan ngan aku.. tak yah terhegeh hegeh....petik sekali 10 yg datang hahahhahahah

2003-12-29T01:02:00.000+08:00

After watching few PLU movies (not porn OK), now i understand what is lacking in me in SEX. the word is PASSION, i dont have the passion with the sex partner. i just dont have the feeling. thats why it so boring. i think if i really like the person surely i would enjoy sex. if i just have sex for the sake of it. its damn boring even i can fake it that i enjoy it just to satisfy them. hemmm am i getting old..arghhh....

anyway i have this client cum friend that i find comfortable accompanied by him. we always hang out together but to have him so call BF forget about it. i really have to be out my closet and i will expose myself.. wow thats really take a lot of guts to do that... declaring to the whole world u r PLU. at this moment, i just enjoy hang out with him. coz i afraid its just a CRUSH and later u forget abt it. but when i am with him, i really feel wanna hug him. he’s really adorable...oh GOD pls help me.....

2003-12-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

I think i had enuff sexadventure, now i think i have the same feeling with some bloggers. recently i met a a few chatters thru MIRC ( the only place for me to met PLU). some i on, some just met n chat. the problem is after all the meeting or sex i dont feel satisfy or happy. maybe they r not my taste, but some is my taste. Am i wanting more than physical or features? am i putting the standards higher?. Now i really understands why some blogger have a list of things to be fullfiled b4 they met anybody. i think i need that too. i dont really enjoy my sexadventures these days coz many have not met my requirement. slim or str8 act is just not enuff. they must smell good, matured conversation, confidence, and many more......i would prefer to have pleasure by myself rather than having them.
at this moment, i want to stop meet any chatters and enjoy things that give me more pleasure and satisfaction. things that i enjoy most such as:-
1. watch movies (plu or normal)
2. live bands
3. go drinks with friends
4. Astro
5. mas******* if i really in need (hehhe)
6. lepak mamak stall
7. my job
8. vacation (biler ada duit)
9. read blog

thats all i can think of now, i really enjoy those things. enjoy life....

2003-12-16T10:05:00.000+08:00

publicity versus performance

When our national hero Nazmizan won 100m and 200m recently, everybody was shocked as well as myself. i am not sport hardcore, but i do follow up whats happening. As for me i have not read any article about him maybe malaysian team put him as underdog. but anyway what i like to stress here how important is publicity versus performance. coz from my point of view, many sports athlete spoils by too early of publicity. they have not shown their real talent or success yet but malaysian media already create a havoc on them. is it necessary? as for me its still find if its regarding their achivement or their training written by the sports media. but its really piss me of when the appear in entertainment magazine. just cant understands?? if they have perform or achive something for the country its fine to be in the glamourous world, but the point here is they have not and still fresh. just becoz of they have the looks they were overexposed by the entertainment media. for me if they want that, simple be an artiste, or actor. i am not write to blame the media or the athletes just afraid that too much publicity will affect the sports arena. the best sportsmen to follow is Beckham, he already prove something and then enjoy the publicity by the media. hemm thats the way.......

2003-12-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

aku ader jumpa chatters masa raya hari tu, 2 kali aku jumpa dia, ok gak la mamat ni,ONS jgn citer la as usual la. citer punya citer dia cakap la dia selalu gi clubbing kat blue boy n jalan jalan kat JP. so the second time aku jumpa dia aku boring giler, aku boleh dikatakan kaki clubbing, tapi sebab still minggu raya, so aku pun takder member la nak gi. aleh aleh dia ajak aku gi blue boy. for the 1st time ever aku gi clubbing kat situ. yg peliknya selama ni aku cuba elakkan gi tempat tempat camni takut kena cop gay maklumlah discreet. tah camner aku rase tak kesah pun biler dia jak gi. yg lebih pelik nya, aku tak rasa nervous langsung, dia plak cam tak biasa sebab dia kata selalu gi ramai ngan member member. dia follower jer. tapi kali ni dia lead aku. aku plak takde perasaan langsung. mungkin sebab hati ni mmg nak gi clubbing kan so leh dance hehehhe. yg best nya cover charge murah giler, kalau yg biasa gi clubbing tempat str8 tau jer la mahal tak mahal coverage kan?? so aku pun gi la, aku rase enjoy giler...sebab yer lah baru abis puasa kan.. so lama lah tak gi clubbing ni...aku pun heran, aku takder plak rase gabra ker aper, yer la mana tau kot jumpa org yg aku kenal mampus aku, kantoi.... tapi masa aku lepak kat dlm tu, tetiba aku ternampak seseorang yg aku kenali........jeng jeng jeng.....tidakkkkkkkkkkk

2003-11-29T18:05:00.000+08:00

i oversexs, boleh ker camtu raya dgn sex. adoiiiiiii.

2003-11-27T18:16:00.000+08:00

hem tak tau nak post aper hari ni, selain citer pasal raya. biasa la kembung perut kuih raya. raya kali ni cam biasa, kat KL as always. raya ke2 dah jumpa chatters hehehhe, so aper lagi dot dot dot. ok gak la mamat tu. tak tau la lepas ni we will keep in touch or not. tengok la camner or maybe it just ONS. citer pasal ONS ni. aku kengkadang confuse gak. sebab biler aku jumpa senang sgt terus ON. pada aku, aku ON sebab aku rase mamat tu ok la. tapi pada org tu?? just becoz of horny or dia taste gak kat aku. sebab aku ni jenis tak kesah sgt i mean as long as pleasent look, clean, straight act shoudnt be any problem ler. sebab aku dok pikir senang jer diorang nak ON ngan aku. apa diorang nyer criteria. or diorang mmg tak kesah just nak lepas nafsu jer???sebab most of the times, aku tak buat the 1st move. pada aku kalau tak nak ON pun ok jer, tapi biler org dah buat 1st move kita pun layan jer la kan, saper nak jawab tu??

2003-11-22T20:12:00.000+08:00

hari ni aku dpt VCD yang aku order. aku order thru online citer-citer ni. citer aper lagi kalau tak yg tak lepas kat tv dan malaysia la dan yg berunsurkan ***. tapi aku tak order citer blue..aku suka yang ader jln citer. so paham-paham jer lah yer...aku dah mula percaya order thru internet ni...so far tak kena kelentong lagi la...raya vcd la nampaknya aku. so sesapa yg ader citer boleh la trade...kalau nak la...hhehehe

2003-11-21T16:13:00.000+08:00

lagi 2, 3 hari kita akan sambut hari raya, aku seperti biasa dari kecik sampai besar dok KL. mmg raya kat KL. tak pernah ada kg anyway. kalau nak balik pun gi penang sebab kat sana ramai adik beradik sebelah mak. atok nenek lama dah takder. so aku and family tak pernah sibuk tiket balik kg ker? jam ker? tol raya ker?. kitorang mmg kat KL. saudara mara aku pun ramai kat KL sebenarnya. so even org yg kejer luar kl pun akan balik KL. boleh dikatakan aku punya saudara basically kat KL, PENANG and SINGAPURA. boleh dikatakan sumenyer bandar bukan kg. mmg la kalau tanya teringin nak ada kg, aper nak buat dah takder. tapi yg penting pada aku di hari raya ialah berada di samping family bukan tempat yg menjadi persoalan. betul tak? best kalau sumer org ada bile kumpul sure kecoh. family aku mmg jenis riuh rendah, so mmg meriah la selalunya sebab rapat antara satu sama lain. rancangan tv yg ditunggu di hari raya ini sudah pastinya ANUAR ZAIN & FRIENDS la aper lagi...cool mamat tu...oklah selamat hari raya sumer... berhati-hati di jalan raya....

2003-11-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

apa yg aku cari sebenarnya? aku pun tak tau. mlm ni sekali lagi aku jumpa chatters and get laid. Penat rasanya, tapi sekali lagi buat diri aku confuse. sebab selepas tu aku rase macam tak puas.tapi sebelum tu rase horny sgt.tah la aku pun tak tau. kalau tanya am i enjoy it. aku pun tak tau nak jawab. rase cam biasa jer lepas tu. nak kata enjoy, gi clubbing n karaoke lagi rase macam puas jer.tah la tak paham gak aku ni kengkadang. tapi yg confirm aku nak ONS jer not into any relationship. sebab aku ader jumpa mamat yg taste aku tapi aku rimas plak biler dia asyik contact aku jer. tapi aku tetap layan ngan baik la, ahh malas ar nak pikir janji lepas ONS aku rase aku boleh concentrate on my job back. sebab sebelum ONS aku rase macam semacam jer. macam ader yg tak complete. i think i need sex regular basis la. boleh ker camtu? kengkadang rase macam hooker pun ader gak. lepas ON blah. bezanya i do it 4 free. tak mintak duit.sometimes i dunno how am i supposed to feel after ONS...cam ner org lain rase agaknya???

2003-11-16T16:53:00.000+08:00

This weekend, i kinda bz with family. my sis from perak is coming over to my house as well as all my siblings with their family for buka puasa. Actually is not my house heheh its my family house but since my father stay muar with his my new mom, so i stay in this house by myself. but consider this house is our ‘kampung’ la. Raya everybody is coming to the house.
Last saturday my sis, my bro n me went to pasar ramadhan together. only us without the children n their life partner. tetiba rase the bonding among us la plak. hehhe. we jokes n really have fun beli belah kat pasar tu. rase dah lama tak buat camtu. biasa la selalu sibuk dengan kerja dan keluarga masing masing. sampai nak pecah perut dari pergi pasar sampai balik pasar. asyik kutuk mengutuk masing-masing. hehheh. pak lawak nyer I ler saper lagi...maklumlah yg last hehhe. i really enjoy the moment. antara kitorang adik beradik ni memang rapat, yer la mungkin sebab mak dah takder so it seems like we have to be together and. If anything come between us, we prefer to face to face. bcoz we know that we have nobody else besides us. i really glad to be in the family. i think our parents had brought us up with good value n respect. for us respect is very important.
besides b with my family, i also volunteer to organize donation collection for my frens whose family met an accident recently at sarawak. the accident was between his family van and trailer. both his parents, sister, uncle n aunty died in the accident. cant imagine camner dia nak sambut raya nanti. family dia bolehlah dikatakan tak la berapa mampu. so, hopefully dengan duit sedekah ni dapat la membantu dia dan family sedikit sebanyak. Bukan aper, biler i tengok ramai org mengucapkan takziah dlm my yahoo group ni. i pun rase ucapan takziah tak dapat menbantu apa-apa. so that is why i organise donation ni, so dapat la jugak org menderma dan membantu keluarga dia. harap-harap dapat la response from kawan kawan lain...........

2003-11-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

whats the difference between caring and pampered? today i discuss about this with my boss coz some of my collegue, married ones of course they treat their wife after deliver is something that disturbed my boss and also me actually. even my brother also did the same thing after my sister in law give birth last few weeks. it seems that todays husband are more caring or loving????? bcoz if u ask older ladies, hehhe most of them they do things by themselves after deliver. husband got no parts or refuse to take any parts in taking care of the baby. or maybe little part la haa. these days it seems like the wife ask so many things the husband to do. the wife is really cant stand by herself. even to bath the baby also ask the husband and many more la. we know la after deliver birth is very tiring but dont take advantage la. and some husband now also cant differentiate between caring, responsibilty or pampered with their wife. some of my collegue take so many days off and also always come late to work. its really affect their job. sometimes we just wondering, who is giving birth. most of all, like my sister in lay really get my nerves. its very irritating. very simple thing also ask my brother to do. hemmm i dunno lar. would i also be like that after get married???? yess we know that we are going to become a caring society, we must share the responsibilty between husband and wife but the problem is with couple is they dont know to differentiate between caring, responsibility and pampered. the effect is they going to spoil the person, lose respect and other ppl do not know how to be independence....hemmmm just a thought.....

2003-11-13T01:36:00.000+08:00

dah lebih 2 minggu pose sedar tak sedar lah, aku solat trawih for the 1st week jer. time semangat tu. full plak tu 20 rakaat. lepas tu sibuk asyik nak gi majlis berbuka jer mana nak gi terawih. trawih pun tah ke mana...majlis berbuka budak sekolah ler, budak kejer ler, kawan UNI la..tak habis list. kalau satu sekolah takper, kalau 2 3 sekolah tak ke banyak tu. belum citer masa UNI lagi, matriks tempat lain, U lain plak...banyak betul buka puasa ni... duit banyak habis kat makan jer.. patut nya bulan puasa la banyak jimat. rasa macam sama jer....pasal buka ni aku pun heran kenapa la hotel, cafe or sumer tempat makan kebanyakan nya offer makanan melayu atau kg. aku pun heran gak. time bulan pose ni org nak makan makanan kg ker? yg aku ni yer la dan kawan aku yg lain cari tempat makan yg offer pelik skit la macam western ker or aper aper jer la...
yer la setakat nak makan nasi lebih baik gi beli kat pasar ramadan jer, tak gitu?? buat aper la susah nak gi makan hotel . yg best nya tempat yg western pun offer makanan kg. pelik tapi benar. gulai la, dan macam macam. majority member aku sumer cari yg lain daripda yg lain. yg bukan ikut tekak melayu.....

2003-11-10T13:08:00.000+08:00

takder kejer, sajer tukar layout. hehhheh. camner nak buat tag board n post pic yer? masih belajor .hehheh, lembab betul aku.

2003-11-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

Aku pun tak tau tapi di bulan pose ni, alhamdulillah naksu serakah dapat di kawal dengan baik hehehhe. yer la setan sumer dah kena ikat, tinggal nafsu jer la kita nak control tak gitu?. so far masih puasa penuh. pada waktu umur aku sekarang ni, boleh dikatakan peak time utk kawin. asyik cerita pasal kenduri kawin n whose next. aku rase aku akan kena handle this pressure selagi aku tak kawin lagi. tapi aku rase macam muda lagi sebenarnya. org kata tak puas enjoy. tapi kalau cakap dengan org yg nak kawin dia kata sampai bila pun tak puas enjoy. kalau cakap tak cukup duit, jawapan pun sama sampai bila pun tak cukup duit. walau apa pun jawapan, aku respect dengan diorang. yer la lain org lain pendapatnya. yer tak?

tapi to be frank aku still rasa muda lagi, macam tak sesuai la kalau dah ada anak dan isteri hehehhe. but that does not mean i am not matured. i feel that i am matured, young, adventurous and energetic. my career makes me meet lot of ppl. many of them when i 1st met, i felt that maybe their older than me coz the way they look, its like i can feel the burden in their head. they looks old. maybe bcoz their job n responsibility. i cant feel the positive energy. i feel their just like a dead body waiting to be buried.sometimes i pity them. lots of stress n pressure i guess. or maybe they just dont know to handle it heehheh macam la expert sgt aku ni. rase macam nak jer bagi tau, hello dude u r still young so be young, go out and freak out, enjoy life. life got so much to offer. if u dont like something, stop doing it, move on. betul tak???

thats all for now. bye

2003-11-05T17:35:00.000+08:00

dah lama betul aku tak menulis dlm blog aku ni semenjak puasa. iam back now. well nothing much to say about bulan puasa ni. bulan puasa ni aku banyak beramal ibadat la aper lagi. yer la setan sumer kena ikat bulan pose ni. tapi nafsu tu yg susah nak control. nak di jadikan cerita, sehari sebelum puasa kira hari sabtu terakhir sebelum puasa aku telah berjumpa dengan budak chatters ni. seperti biasa la, budak ni taste kat aku dan aku pun kira taste la gak kat dia. so aper yg harus terjadi pun terjadi la. tapi selepas hari tu sampai sekarang still kitorang keluar bersama tapi masih kawal nafsu la kan. bolehlah dikatakan hubungan bulan Ramadhan. budak ni muda lagi university student so next few days nak balik campus dah. so aku tak tau la aper akan terjadi lepas ni. maksud aku r we still friend or just like that. bagi aku tak kesah pun kalau apa pun yg terjadi.

Selain hubungan suci (suciker?) di bulan ramadhan tu aku banyak concentrate dlm kerja aku. sekarang aku ader sorang downline aku yg perlu aku jaga to ensure that dia succces dlm kerjaya yg sama. aku betul betul harap dia akan berjaya so that aku pun bolehla naik manager nanti dan of course la dia pun untung. win win situation. walaupun aku tak tulis dlm blog ni aku masih membaca favourite blog aku....

tu jer lah utk hari ni..nak pergi cari juadah berbuka puasa lah...

assalamualaikum

2003-10-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

Ramai orang ada impian, tapi berapa ramai yang dapat mencapai impian masing-masing. Setiap orang mempunyai impian tersendiri, ada yang nak kereta besar, rumah besar, bini lawa dan macam macam lagi. Tapi berapa ramai yang sekarang menuju ke arah impian mereka. Lebih ramai yang hanya menunggu impian mereka menjadi kenyataan, tapi hanya sekadar menunggu tanpa melakukan apa apa. Harapkan rezeki atau tuah datang bergolek. Semua orang tahu itu semua tak mungkin terjadi. Mungkin terjadi kepada segelintir kecil sahaja. Ramai mengharap tergolong dlm segelintir kecil itu. Menang peraduan, cabutan bertuah dan macam macam lagi lah...adakah hidup ini hanya bergantung pada nasib? kenapa tuhan kurniakan otak dan kederat utk kita berfikir dan berusaha. Ramai yang boleh berfikir tapi tak ramai yang berusaha. Dalam tak ramai yang berusaha itu pula, berapa ramai yang bertahan. Yang berfikir, berusaha dan bertahan inilah yang menempa kejayaan. Tapi apa jadi pada selebihnya orang kita. Ada yang tidak berfikir dan malas berfikir, hanya berserah.......orang seperti ini tak kemana....takuk tu jer lah....Ada yang berfikir dan berusaha, tapi sejauh manakah usaha mereka....golongan ini boleh dikatakan berani mencuba...cuma apabila datang ujian kepada mereka tak ramai yang mampu bertahan...lebih mudah dengan mengalah atau berputus asa....bertahan dan kecekalan menghadapi cabaran dan dugaan adalah faktor kejayaan.....walau apa pun jua, jika kita telah bermula dengan berfikir, kemudian berusaha dan akhirnya berjiwa cekal dan tabah menghadapi cabaran barulah kita berserah...insyaallah akan berjaya....seperti yang selalu dikatakan di tempat kerja LET GO LET GOD....

2003-10-14T17:09:00.000+08:00

hallo such a long time have not updated my blog. quite bz now. no time to write. maybe later la ok
bye

2003-10-03T15:29:00.000+08:00

Macam- macam citer aku nak citer dlm minggu ni, tapi tak tau mana satu nak start dulu. ye lah dah lama tak tulis blog, sebab tu ada banyak citer. aku rasa lebih baik aku jumpa pasal chatters ni. ada satu hari tu aku boring, so aku pun apa lagi chatting la, biasak la chanel yang aku selalu pergi, bagi yang tau tu paham-paham jer lah..ingat nak chat jer malas ar nak jumpa ker aper ker...tapi one thing about chatting ni...bila kita takde mood nak gi jumpa ker atau pun nak lelebih ehem ehem...time tu la kita dpt chat ngan org yang kita nak, kira taste kita arrrr.....tapi kalau time kita nak betul on ker aper ker...sumer nyer yg hampeh jerrr heheheheh kita yer yer berusaha dlm chanel tu, tapi sumer tak berkenan......mungkin ni lah org kata when we try so hard to get it, we will lose it but if we just rilex and take things easy somehow it will comes to you.....nak di jadikan citer ader la satu mamat ni beria- ria nak jumpa.....aku pun ok jer la....no hal la kan....so biler jumpa tu....peh memang leh tahan la muka cam hindustan....rupanya dia ada blood pakistan....alim plak tu kira sembahyang tak lupa arr...sebab siap ajak aku gi sembahyang dulu .....kira ok la....aku pun solat gak....mlm tu dia lepak umah aku.....citer mlm tu tak yah la aku nak citer kat sini...itu rahsia hahhahhahah......yang penting gua enjoy hahahhaha......

tapi aku tak tau la sampai bila la aku nak jadi camni.......to be frank i dont have any gay friends in real life....sumer kenal thru chanel chat.....kalau pun ader dlm golongan kawan aku....i just ignore it arrr.....tapi so far takder lah aku nak find out plak...masing masing punya kehidupan so pandai lah jaga masing-masing......bak kata pepatah kubur masing-masing.....hehehheh tapi member aku cakap ada ustaz sound dia, ustaz tu kata memang lah kubur masing-masing tapi kalau lah ditakdirkan kubur saya sebelah kubur awak, tak ker tak tenteram kubur saya kalau awak asyik kena seksa dlm kubur....hemmm logik gak ustaz ni....pandai dia jawab....tapi tentang chatting ni aku tak tau lah, its like an easy way ro get what u want, u name it u can find it if u can take the risk.....sometimes i just want to enjoy chatting, but like i said just now sometimes its very irresistable to avoid invitation to meet and u know la whats next.....tahap kronik ker aku ni....tah la ....tapi biler aku bosan....apa lagi chat arrr....paling senang tak yah kuar dari rumah......aku rase kena kawin kot, selesai masalah.....betulker selesai????

2003-09-28T01:16:00.000+08:00

MY FAVOURITE BLOG....

well i have few favourite blog that i follow since i involve in this weblog thing. there are many reason why i follow their blog. it does not matter if they follow mine or not. but i learn a lot from their blog and enjoy reading it so much. as for me, i create my blog just to express my feeling and thought about anything almost anything. i have no theme about my blog like some blogs. its just simple and free expression that i have in my head or in my heart that i want to share or write about based on my experience of my daily life or the way i look at things. i chose to read these few of my favourite blog regardless of their sexual orientation, or anything that makes us difference from the others. one good thing about weblog is we look at things from other ppl point of view which will makes us matured in our thinking and also experience things that we may or will not experience in our real life..so enjoy reading...here is my favourite blog and why i read it......

http://nizamzakaria.blogspot.com/ and http://sultanmuzaffar.blogspot.com/

these 2 blogs its about reviews...as for sultan muzaffar i like to read his blog because it keeps me update about whats happening in town in ARTs or SENI...like theater..well i enjoy reading the comments and also review about theater as i myself also enjoy theater very much ....berjiwa seni la jugak J ...but actually his weblog caught my attention during the akademi fantasia fever. As for nizam blog, i follow becoz he review about many things from books, movies and even dialogue with few ppl. well it gives me an insight to read good books, watch good movies which is very informative. nizam blog is the 1st blog i follow when i get to know about weblog. these 2 weblogs got many followers because of the quality contents.

http://www.tentangseoranglelaki.blogspot.com/ by caesar

this weblog is like u read a novel. i follow becoz of the story line which based on maybe personal experience + fiction.. i dont know. but the way the author write makes us cant wait for the next day to know the continue...sometimes i feel like i follow soap opera in the TV. you just got hooked on it. once u follow u cant stop. i think if this guy write a script of telemovie. it would be great telemovie. heheheh

http://leez.blogspot.com/ by leez

this is my favourite. i really enjoy reading it becoz of the sex encounters what else. very transparent and straight forward the way leez write. lots of term cikcut, cikcur, ceknek and a lot more term that i dont understand at first but as u go along its really fun the way leez express herself ??or himself. i like the story coz very unpredictable, daring and no hipocrites. she/he just be herself/himself. its also make me understand how ppl like her go through her/his daily life....i have problems to address leez as him/her...sorry i better just mention as leez.

http://takdekerje.blogspot.com/ by tee kay

well this guy give me some insight about life and also just like to follow his daily life coz it seems cool and always in control in his life. the way i see it his a very matured guy and handle things in cool manner. just miss this guys coz his in holiday and have not update his blog for few days now. i guess many bloggers also wait for him to come back.

http://nickxandar.blogspot.com/ by nick

besides good english, i like to read his blog coz its always new things that he writes about and always give me fresh and new idea. just love it.

http://kenapa.blogspot.com/ by adam

hemm, adam its quite new in these arena just like me. but he damned serious about it. lot of effort has been put in to improvise his blog. i like his blog becoz of the food reviews and also the photograpy which is also my interest. one day i also one to be a good photographer, as at this time i just learn from him and get some ideas. another things is the sport things, i like sports too. so his blog will updates me on things in sports arena.
cool blog dude.

well thats my favourite blog at this time, i enjoy reading it. i am sure u have ur favourites too....

2003-09-23T20:18:00.000+08:00

lama dah tak update blog aku ni. mungkin sebab last week aku tak berapa sihat dan tak terurus sgt. aku rase lemah sgt, perut rase lapar tapi makan takde selera, kepala pening kengkadang. bosan jer....bila aku borak ngan makcik aku pasal keadaan aku yang takde selera sgt nak makan, dia cakap mungkin aku banyak pikir sgt...logik gak dia cakap, tak terpikir aku...bila otak kita banyak pikir....ia akan buat badan kita tak dapat bertindak balas dgn baik sebab terlalu pikir.....badan pun rasa lemah dan affect kita punya appetite......so we need exercise so that we can relase tension and also our mind...thats what iam doing and also taking extra vitamin and also chicken essence.....pehhh i feel damn good.....ye lah asyik kejer jer sometimes buatkan badan kita lemah......percayalah kerja yang perlukan otak akan buat badan kita lebih penat.....sebab otu kita kena workout.......hehheheheh

tapi remark yang makcik aku bagi lagi satu lagi best...... nak kawin kot???? dah ada calon ker? woit ke situ plak makcik aku........ish lambat lagi....muda lagi......uk ngan us pun tak pernah pegi lagi camner nak kawin hahhahhahah ......aku baru borak ngan member aku kat sana UK yang tgh buat PHD, dia kat dtg la time spring antara bulan 2-5 thn depan. aku kata ok gak.......sementara kawan ada, murah skit belanja tak gitu????aku kena pergi gak ...takut nanti mati tak lelap mata....hahhhah

2003-09-19T11:37:00.001+08:00

hari ni hujan lebat, siap ribut lagi....so aku pun sedap la tido....boss aku and my collegue keep on calling me. i put it on silent mode...so saper pun takleh kacau aku. biler pukul 10 aku rase dah tak leh tido dah...aku mandi dan pakai baju kejer sebab aku ader appt. lepas sembahyang jumaat.lepas bersiap aku pun pergi lah breakfast....tapi yang bestnya cuaca very clear...best giler....aku memang suka cuaca lepas hujan ni....i think its clear the haze yang dah berapa hari ni nampak serabut jer....cuaca pagi macam ni nampak macam lukisan jer....so aku pun pergi breakfast dekat kedai. kat rumah aku ni banyak kedai jual breakfast..i mean nasi lemak, roti canai..apa jer sumer ada kat depan rumah jer......banyak choice....boring makan kedai makcik ni ....beli kat makcik lain......tapi aku sebenarnya jarang makan kat kedai area rumah....tak tau la apasal....selalu aku beli bawak balik makan kat umah jer....tak kira la breakfast ker, lunch ker or dinner.....mungkin sebab malas nak makan sorang-sorang kat kedai...kalau ada geng ok jer....tapi most of the time aku mkan kat umah jer....mungkin jugak masa mak aku ada dulu, food is always on the table..so tak pernah nak ingat makan kat luar....aku adik beradik sama jer...even kalau kitorang makan kat luar....tapi bila balik mesti nak makan lagi...but since mak aku dah takde sekarang so macam tak biasa la makan kedai area rumah ni.....

tapi pagi ni aku decide nak breakfast kat kedai sebab aku nak enjoy the weather yang memang sedap and makes me calm and cool. aku makan nasi himpit and teh o kat kedai tu...sedang aku breakfast, siaran ulangan potret kejayaan pasal yusof haslam tengah ditayangkan kat kedai tu. aku dah tengoh dah episod tu.....tapi apa yang aku nak cerita kat sini how typical malay yang selalu lepak kedai kopi response and give bad remark about yusof haslam.....bila yusof haslam cakap dia pernah jadi konduktor bas....diorang kata dah berjaya boleh lah cakap camni......biasa la ni.....bila yusof haslam menangis teringatkan bapak dia.....org kat kedai tu boleh cakap kalau dah pelakon..pelakon jugak lah yer......macam taknak approvedkan kejayaan yusof haslam......aku tak paham betul. kenapa tak nak berbangga ada org melayu yang berjaya dalam bidang masing-masing.....just be proud.....tak paham betul aku...barulah aku terasa PHD(perasaan hasad dengki) yang sangat tinggi kat kedai kopi macam ni.....kalau kat opis aku kitorang panggil org macam ni energy sucker......tiba-tiba aku rase elok jugak aku tak suka makan kat kedai area rumah aku ni....kalau tidak aku pun jadi macam diorang.....aku rase syukur jugak sebab aku takder campur org camtu...kawan-kawan...atau pun family....my family always support me and always be there for me....camnelah family org-org camni agaknya....kesian kat anak diorang ker...sure ader banyak halangan atau tentangan biler nak buat sesuatu.....i just wondering apalah diorang cakap ttg kejayaan anak-anak malaysia yang lain ....hem tak tahulah???

2003-09-19T11:37:00.000+08:00

2003-09-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

“did u call ur maid after i call u?” “blom lagi” my sis reply...oit aku pun heran ish tak paham aku ni... so aku pun citer ngan dia about anak dia sakit perut sumer tu...dia pun ye ker tanya aku balik... aku kata call la rumah ask ur maid......ok ok dia jawab....

aku pun tak balik dan terus ke opis aku kat damansara....dah sampai kat ofis lebih kurang 1 jam lepas tu tetiba aku terima call dari rumah lagi. ish saper lak ni aku kata....rupanya my sis in law dah sampai rumah dan mintak tolong i antar anak dia yang sakit perut tu gi klinik. i kata kalau i sampai umah pun lambat sebab dah time org balik kejer ni. jam “hi jam” so dia kata takpelah... anyway takder lah jauh sgt klinik pun.... di pendekkan cerita i balik ptg tu kira buat cam biasa jer lah. tanya ngan my sis. so i pun tanyalah in english so that the maid tak paham. so dia cakapla bila dia interrogate the maid. maid tu rase serba salah, muka gelabah. anyway aku pun buat tak tau la malas nak layan sgt. mana dia dpt no tepon aku, daripada my name kad yang my nephew main sepah-sepah. mungkinkah main ni minat kat aku lak?? sudah ? so kesimpulannya sepanjang minggu aku tak berani balik rumah tanpa ada my sis in law..hehehh

tapi kadang-kadang aku kesian kat maid ni, any maid la i mean. takder freedom , kejer jaga anak atau kemas rumah tiap-tiap hari. tu belum kena boss yang banyak karenah. mungkin pada mereka kehidupan ini lebih baik dari kehidupan yang mereka pernah alami sebelum ini. tapi ada jugak la yang dah biasa dengan negara kita, mereka tahu mencari pekerjaan yang lebih bebas macam cleaner ker...ye lah tak attach dengan mana-mana. bagi kita, i dont think so we can work like them. as a maid u work like 24 hours. u see nobody except the family yang u take care. berapa lama org boleh bekerja macam tu??? sampai bila??? kalau construction worker tu at least u got time for yourself, tapi maid yang tinggal sekali tu it seems like u work for 24 hours and 7 days. apa pun kena syukur la dengan apa yang tuhan berikan pada kita, and i also feel so lucky to be in this country......

2003-09-13T11:07:00.000+08:00

Pendatang Asing (Imigrants)

my brother nak gi outstation this week. so since i stay in my parents house alone located in central KL, he decided to leave his family with me. anyway my sis in law is pregnant but still working. so kira senang la kalau nak pergi kerja and kalau anything emergency i will be there. so tinggal lah I, my sis in law, 2 children and her maid. i tak kesah sgt pun coz week days selalunya sibuk bekerja lah....

Nak di jadikan cerita, di satu hening ketika aku tgh lunch with my client. aku dapat panggilan telepon dari rumah. aku terpikir saper plak call aku dari rumah ni. my sis in law kat ofis i hantar pagi tadi. takkan the maid?? rupanya mmg betul the maid? aku terpikir ish mana plak dia dapat nombor tepon aku ni?? dia telefon aku dan tanya “Abg Apess, kalung hitam itu untuk saya ya?” aku tak dengar perkataan kalung tu sebab tempat lunch tu bising giler. so i keep on repeating la." apa yang hitam?” dia pun cakaplah kalung yang hitam tu beberapa kali. tiba-tiba aku teringat oh aku ader rantai hitam masa aku beli kat thailand dulu dlm bilik aku kat atas meja. dlm hati aku eh apahal lak minah indon ni cakap kalung tu utk dia? aku pun terus jawab bukan dan kalaung tu aku punya. so dia tak puas hati dan letak telefon.

aku heran? mana dia dpt no tepon aku ? apahal lak dia cakap kalung tu utk dia? aku dah naik seram.... aku pun lepas lunch ngan client aku ... aku terus call my sis on law kat ofis and ask her how her maid got my no and i story him about what she wants...my sis pun cakap nanti she find out.....so aku pun oklah malas nak layan sgt.....tak sampai beberapa minit masa aku on the way to the office, my mobile bunyi lagi, my house no appear...ish dlm hati aku naper lak maid ni call aku lagi....mungkin nak minta maaf kot? maybe my sis dah call dia so suruh dia mintak maaf kat aku kot? aku pun jawab...tetiba suara maid tu “ bang apess, balik zamri(bukan nama sebenar) sakit perut dia nangis” aku boleh dengar suara my nephew yang baru nak masuk 3 tahun tu nangis. aku tanya dia, dia dah call my sis in law ker? tapi dia macam tak faham. slang indon maid ni pekat skit. kengkadang aku pun tak paham dia cakap. aku kata ok lah malas nak continue conversation lagi. so aku pun call my sis on law and tanya dia “did u call ur maid after i call u?” “blom lagi” my sis reply...bersambung

2003-09-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

Virginity......

Virginity ataupun lebih mudah disebut sebagai Dara.......apakah signifikannya dlm sebuah keluarga ataupun lebih tepat pada pasangan baru? Adakah Dara membuktikan kesucian seorang wanita itu? Tidak suci lagikah wanita itu jika kehilangan daranya? kenapa soalan ini dilontarkan sebegitu rupa....sebenarnya aku mendengar cerita satu member ofis aku ni yang mempunyai client yang menceritakan sejarah hidupnya. client ini seorang lelaki dan telah berkahwin dan sekarang mempunyai anak. client ini menceritakan bahawa dia masih tidak dapat memaafkan isterinya kerana setelah berkahwin he found out that his wife is no more virgin. dia rase tertipu dengan isterinya. tidaklah diketahui cerita sebelum tu plak. samaada mereka telah reveal everything b4 they got married or not. but according to my friend that his wife is really good and loyal wife. Since than the husband never trust her and now having an affair with other women. tak tahu lah plak how serious is the affair, mistress ker? or just having fun tak tau la....tapi kalau having fun takdela panggil affair ye tak? tah la...

tapi aper yang penting kat sini aku tak faham ialah takkan kerana DARA tak percaya isteri sendiri ye tak? ataupun itu hanya alasan semata-mata ? dah ada anak pun ? pada aku bila dah kawin tu itu semua dah tak menjadi persoalan, ye lah bila dah pilih wanita itu sebagai isteri u accept him as a package sumer sekali yang baik dan buruk ye tak? mungkin si isteri patut disalahkan kerana tidak menceritakan perkara sebenar ? tapi perlu ker diceritakan ? mungkin itu satu titik hitam bagi si isteri. itulah dinamakan manusia hanya nampak yang buruk lebih drpd yang baik. bukankah lebih mudah melupakan masa lepas dan mulakan kehidupan baru yang bahagia......tapi cakap memang senang la tapi nak buat bukan senang. ini semua bergantung kepada insan itu sendiri. apakah yang lebih penting pada dia ? dan betapa besar pengorbanan yang sanggup dilakukannya ? tepuk dada tanya selera.........tapi yang penting lebih mudah menjadi lelaki dara is totally out of context....hahahhah.....anda setuju?

2003-09-08T19:05:00.000+08:00

this week i started early, it makes me feel good. i have the feeling that i am on track in my business. i would feel good the whole week. i fokus in what iam doing....to be frank theres nothing i would like to share here in this blog. just wish all the bloggers have a good week orait....just wanna share u about.....

THE ESSENCE OF A NEW DAY

TODAY
this is the beginning of a new day
i have this day to use as i will
i can waste it or grow in its light
and be of service to others.
but what i do with this day is
important because i have
exchange a day of my life for it
when tomorrow comes.
today will be gone forever
i hope i will not regret the price i paid for it.

2003-09-04T23:32:00.000+08:00

Recently kalau korang perasan banyak citer dari negara latin di tayangkan di negara kita....makcik makcik suri rumah tak leh buat kerje di buatnya....ye la org kejer mana ada masa nak tengok citer yg ditayangkan sebab waktu kejer ye tak...... tapi ader jugak la kedengaran yg sanggup tuang kerje nak pergi tengok citer citer latin ni.......aper pun sanggup buat....biasa la kalau pasal soap opera atau drama tv ni kalau dah start tengok tak bleh berhenti......aku cukup suka tengok drama jepun sebenarnya...peminat betul masa zaman universiti dulu....kalau drama jepun ni aku rase sumer org ingat citer lama OSHIN.......pasal hairdresser ni.....sekarang dah macam macam la......tapi kenapa kita suka tengok citer macam ni yerrr....tak pulak nak tengok kalau citer melayu buat macam tu....selain hero hensem dan heroin nyer yg cun melecun.....latin jgn citer la mmg best hensem giler n lawa .....tak kurang jugak citer jepun.....pelakon dia pun leh tahan jugak.....

aku rasa antara jawapan dia org minat tengok drama tv luar ni sebab originality dan different from one story to another.....so even lepas satu- satu citer pun tangkap layan.....aku lebih pada citer jepun la....pada aku citer latin ni banyak makcik jer yg tengok sebab lebih kepada tema curang la...bla bla bla....tapi kalau jepun aku suka sebab karakter diorang yg lain. citer pun macam-macam.....sifat org jepun ni pun aku suka dlm sopan diorang ni ada style tersendiri.......tak boring......latin punya drama sebenarnya banyak macam citer melayu....banyak tangkap nangis....cuma drama dia lebih seksi, daring dan banyak lagi yg drama melayu tak leh buat takut tak lepas di tonton. so makcik suri rumah pun suka la......aku rase lah soap opera melayu yg boleh kata berjaya jugak la IDAMAN....tapi lepas tu dah meleret-leret....org pun malas nak tengok....tapi masa mula-mula dulu ok gak la dia punya demam.....lepas tu dah takder dah......yg lain sumer drama yg pendek skit la macam KUTUB UTARA KUTUB SELATAN.... leh tahan gak citer rasyid sibir ni......camni lah yg kita mahu....tapi rasyid sibir...citer-citer macam ni mmg dia pandai buat.....tapi negara kita ni kurang lagi la org yg kreatif camni.....more indie movie.....ramai sebenarnya tapi tak dapat support kot so ramai yg putus asa.....tapi adat la yer tak....kalau senang sangat tak challenging la plak....sumer kerajaan nak provide ker.....betul tak....teringin tengok citer melayu...dengan gaya tersendiri.....cth nya SPINNING GASING.......thats all i can remember......kalau setakat citer perang...i still vote for BUKIT KEPONG.....

2003-09-04T10:13:00.000+08:00

hehehhe, jealous tengok adam punya layout baru....ye lah since i started this blog memang nak tukar layout...tapi macam malas+takder masa+tak tau nak buat....so just ignore it la....tapi biler tengok adam tukat layout....jeolous plak....sori la kalau colour samer hitam....well aku memang suka hitam n biru...so aku pilih skin layout ni...sebab simple tu jer....sori arr adam kalau colour samer...aku rase dah tak tukar dah kot...ok ker layout camni???? kalau tak ok pun pedulik aper janji rock....hhahhahhahha

2003-09-04T01:29:00.000+08:00

appapapa

2003-09-03T17:49:00.000+08:00

this year merdeka i just celebrate at home with my parents. coz they were at home last weekend. kinda budak baik... heheheheh.......anyway such a long time about 2 month i have not seen them......so we just chatting all night long....basically all family affairs we talked about.....it seems ages i have not talked to them.....kinda happy to see them......if not i ll be alone as always.....

merdeka spirits, this year i not sure the spirits is strong enuf inside me to celebrate it. well i did hang the jalur gemilang outside my house and also put in front of my car....but believe it or not...merdeka morning i end up waking up late...so consider spirit or not.... i dont even watched the parade....which i think quite nice coz its in a new place at PUTRAJAYA....well i wish that i watched it...but unfortunately....too lazy to wake up early....so talking bout celebration.....i only fly the bendera i guess.... i dont even go to KLCC or wherever they have the celebration.......just dont like crowded these days....prefer to stay home....am i not patriotic by doing that?.... well for me patriotic is nothing to do with how u celebrate the merdeka day....as for me to what level or extent will u protect the country just for the sake of love the country. nothing else....thats patriotic......talking about patriotic....i have a friend recently he went for interview for the post of diplomatic officer or PTD we called it.....during the interview he had been asked what is the difference between patriotisme and nasionalisme?....hemmm tough question huh.......i think nasionalisme is always referring to somebody who have been contribute to the country in the sense of protecting the country...they who we called NASIONALIS.....patriotisme is a spirit of love to the country.....i dont know i am not the expert in bahasa....any1 can tell me the exact differences?.....whatever it is something to do about the country la....sure fail the interview if he answer this way.....hahhhahaha

2003-08-30T16:54:00.000+08:00

sekejap jer its AUGUST already another 4 months to go to 2004. hemm add another no to your age.....time just passed by.....recently its really hot about sex stuff ni. cerita datin la, nasya la, wan nor azlin la, pramugara la ditambah plak dengan cerita panas NTV7, edisi siasat sex di tepi tangga, money boy, sex di hutan dan macam-macam lagi......

kengkadang tak paham jugak la, dah la buat sex tu dah kira dosa besau... tuhan dah -memang nampak.... pergi rakam plak adegan sex tu.... utk saper lak.....utk tontonan ramai plak ker?..... setakat nak tengok sendiri ....terus buat jer la yer tak...live.....ni pi rakam plak.... what is the reasoning behind?....konon biler suami gi outstation leh tengok vcd tu...camtu plak......leh pakai ker alasan tu......abis tu aper lagi alasan......personal collection?.....utk aper?.......sex is something that both party enjoying.....bukan utk buat duit ker aper ker.....lain la kalau memang kerjanya tu.......apa pun alasan, memang aku susah nak terima....tapi macam member aku cakap.... these ppl dah sampai satu stage that looking at their own sex action can give them different kind of pleasure......kira macam kinky, fetish and all the stuf yg pelik-pelik la......tapi satu lah masalahnya kalau terlepas ke tgn org tak ker betul-betul menganiaya diri sendiri........apa pun alasannya, taping is really not a very good idea....do something else la........banyak lagi cara.....tapi kelakar sebenarnya kalau tengok vcd ni...1st their amatur and pakai videocam jer....so mcm masa buat sex tu asyik dok pandang kamera so that they can have their best shot......cam kesian jer......asyik betulkan kamera jer....so wheres the fun ????? muka cam poyo jer yg cd datin tu hahahahaha

yang lagi satu aku nak citer ni pasal sex di hutan ni..by NTV7, sebenarnya aku tak tengok edisi ni....tapi member-member aku citer kira cam tak caya gak biler reporter NTV7 ni follow couple tu...pakai tudung lak awek tu....dengar citer kat ulu yam......peliklah aku.....naper nak buat kat hutan plak......tak tau lah aper yg nak di cuba tu.....kira environment lain skit kot???....ni mesti banyak tengok vcd blue ni........aku tak faham sgt la org camni.....takleh buat kat tempat yg selesa skit.....umah ker...hotel ker......org cakap tak mampu kot?....so mana sempat jer la.....tapi kat hutan ni....ish banyak benda keras beb.....lain yg nak lain plak jadiknyer.....tu lah kengkadang biler nafsu dah terlalu mengawal diri......setan dah bertanduk.....apa pun boleh.....bawak mengucap skit.......tapi aku kesian jugak kat diorang ni....kebanyakan nya from low income group of ppl....aku bukan nak perkecilkan diorang ni....aku pun bukan lah bagus sgt....atau pun kaya sgt......tapi can u imagine the trouble that they indulge in?.....dah la hidup susah.....tetiba dtg masalah lain lagi......bertimpa-timpa jadinya....tapi diorang pun ada nafsu gak ye tak?......aku bukan aper cuma suka tengok org yg susah, menggunakan kehidupan susah mereka sebagai driving force utk berjaya.....berjaya tak semestinya kaya....tapi apa juga yg diorang inginkan ....yg penting merubah kehidupan mereka.....kan bagus tu......

tapi recently memang banyak citer pasal sex ni kuar tv.....sebenarnya selain NTV7 mengupas kehidupan sebenar .....secara tidak langsung mempromote tempat atau aktiviti tu seperti money boy, lesbian , gay dsbnya.....kira daring jugak NTV7 ni mengupas kisah camtu.....tapi aku dengar kementerian dlm negeri nak saman NTV7 tak tau la pasal apa...tapi ader pasal ni jugak la......kita tengok jer la.....tapi ok jugak what NTV7 berani buat camni....bukan aper kita asyik sibuk cerita pasal kisah luar negeri jer.....bom sana bom sini...lebih baik kita fokus kan masalah di negara kita ni....so that we can have a better place of living.....bukan berita luar tu tak penting.....tapi sesekali biler NTV7 buat kejutan camtu .....baru ramai masyarakat kita bukak mata skit.....kalau tidak cam blur jer....tak tau aper yg berlaku......syabas NTV7 keep up the good work.....selamat hari merdeka sumer......MERDEKA ! MERDEKA ! MERDEKA !

2003-08-29T10:03:00.000+08:00

nak gi kejer malas plak ari ni, hujan plak tu so aper lagi tarik selimut lagi la...ni la jadi nya bila kejer sendiri... takder disiplin.... takpe janji masyuk...hehhehe....kejap jer dah hari jumaat... dah nak abis dah bulan 8 dan nak MERDEKA.... aper la aku nak buat merdeka day nanti selain keduri kendara.... rase cam nak gi happening or clubbing la.... tapi malas arr nak celebrate kat tempat crowded... ish rimas rr....but i think quite line up of events being organise for this weekend i guess.....

still remember masa sekolah dulu suka bersesak-sesak gi dataran merdeka semata-mata nak tengok konsert merdeka. sekarang takde la... dah mellow down kot... tak minat arr nak gi tempat camtu lagi... prefer light n easy place kot....n tengok crowd camner... wah citer macam la bagus giler hehehehheh....macam la standard sgt ye tak.......pirahhhh

takpelah bagi can la plak next generation enjoy the stuff, we have go thru that.. so let them la plak kot....mlm semalam gi lepak kat gloria kat klcc ngan my female friend kinda cool gak lepak kat situ. sbb boleh dengar music from the live band perform kat shroom. kira free entertainment la. aper lagi biler jumpa member citer tak hengat la. 2 3 jam jugak la lepak kat situ. minum seperti biasak la. order satu coffee. yg lain air kosong... hahahhha

ala bukan sedap sgt nak minum kat situ kedai mamak lagi best.... dah la mahal betul tak ADAM... adam mesti setuju nyer.... anything that u will recommend dude?ish oklah hujan pun dah berhenti.....nak gi kejer arrr.. dah kol 10 baru nak gi kejer... apa nak jadi aku ni.... entahkan jadi entahkan tidak.....oklah adios.....selamat bercuti di hujung minggu.....

2003-08-28T01:09:00.000+08:00

aku ingat nak citer pasal movie Lan Yu, like what i promise in early entry. but i dont think so i want to write about it now.to be frank now i really... how to say it ... i feel really horny and need somebody... sure readers muak dengar citer aku...but anyway when i think back, the reason i write in this blog is to express my feeling... so i do it my way...i dont care if u like to read my blog or not. as for me i write it coz i need a place to express my feeling.....

i dont know recently like i mention earlier i really cannot concentrate on my job. maybe becoz i feel lonely. when u grow older...older is it the right words?... prefer matured.... ur friends are somehow occupied with their own stuff... so i felt so lonely...sometimes also tired hang out with same friend.. coz we will talk about the same stuff... like your collegue... somehow rather there must be something to do with job... arghhh....boring....sometimes u just wanna look for something new and different...not about ur routine things.....i think the best is hang out with ur study friends like school or uni...... sure u really have fun....the problem is like i said la ppl are not easy to get together these days....

well at last, solution is go to chatting MIRC...well to be frank i always go to the PLU channel la maner lagi....so last nite i met this guy younger than me. he really looks like chatters that i met b4 which i have lost contact. kiranya mmg taste giler la kan. masa chat tu i already mention upfront to him that if u looks ok i bring u home, but if not we just go for drink. the reason coz we did not trade any pic b4. so he agreed. i also mention to him that is it ok if i want to sleep with him and send him back early in the morning tomorrow. he said ok...

so i met him, since i like him... so as per the agreement... i once again ask him is it ok if i wanna bring u home? (kira paham la aku taste kat ko- ye tak?) dia kata tak kesah its ok. i assume kira dia pun taste la kat aku, betul tak? apa kata korang?....sampai rumah aku... aku pun tak tau nak buat aper dan aku pun dah ngantuk la.....tapi aku pasang la VCD so takderla boring sgt.....masa tengok VCD tu aku suruh dia baring dekat ngan aku so that i can hug him.... he allowed me....lepas tu dia biar jer aku raba badan seluruh badan dia... dia ada kata.....raba jer tau......so aku ok... sampai kat private part dia tanya aku... ko nak i**p tak? aku tanya dia balik....ko nak i**p aku tak? dia kata dia tak i**p. so aku kata aku pun tak la.... come on la give n take la kan.... yer tak....dia diam jer....

di pendekkan citer....citer VCD pun dah abis...so tv sumer pun dah tutup..... aku pun peluk la dia.... tetiba dia bangun cakap nak balik dia kata dia tak comfortable...dan kesian kat aku besok nak kena antar dia pagi.....masalahnya umahnya dia jauh la gak... aku dah malas nak drive antar dia... dia kata takper dia berjalan kaki....aku cakap ngan dia kalau dia rase tak comfortable aku peluk dia.... aku takder la kacau dia tido......kita tido separately la... aku pun takder la gersang sgt....tapi dia kata takper... dia nak balik jugak... so dia balik jln kaki....

aku rase bersalah plak tak antar dia balik... sebab aku gi ambik dia tu satu hal.... yang buat aku lebih confius dan tak paham dan rase menyesal tak tanya dia direct ialah... naper dia nak blah .....sebab aku bukan taste dia ker? aku ader tanya tapi dia kata aku ok mungkin nak sedapkan hati aku.... yg aku tak paham kalau tak taste naper cakap ok ikut aku balik umah....naper bagi aku raba satu badan dia....aku kalau tak taste takder la aku nak bagi dia touch badan aku pun .... ish geli aku....atau pun adakah dia tak dapat aper yang dia nak... sebab aku tak nak suck dia.....aku bebetul confius.... aku ni takder la paksa dia buat aper-aper..... kalau tak taste cakap tak taste direct .... mungkin dia nak jaga hati aku....ish tak paham... yg ikut aku plak naper?..... bagi aku raba plak naper?.......ker sebab aku tak nak suck dia so dia rase frust... tapi takder lak cakap...ish ni la susah biler jumpa bebudak ni....tak reti nak str8 forward....apa kata korang???? apa agak sebabnya.... nyesal lak aku tak tanya direct... aku pun dah mamai dah mlm tu.....so cam blur la gak.....buat aku confius jer......tak paham....

2003-08-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

last weekend aku gi nengok movie kat bukit kiara. diorang buat outdoor movie organize by nokia. the event until this month. but not bad la the sound system. ok gak tengok movie camtu layback jer, bentang tikar, bawak bantal.. pehhh best jerr u fell so at home.. cuma kat pdg la hehahhah...kira puas hati la..yer la kat malaysia bukan selalu ader benda camni, so grab the opportunity la aper lagi...aku gi ngan my officemate..lepas balik dari situ kitorang lepak kat sri hartamas. such a long time aku tak gi situ... hemmm quite happening gak.... banyak mamat hensem dan awek cun kat situ siot.... tak tahan... lepak situ sampai kol 2 pagi lepas tu balik....

balik aku terkejut tengok umah aku lampu terbukak. aku ingat saper ader kat umah. bukak pintu rupanya abg aku dtg. dia tak tido lagi.. dia tanya gi maner.. aku cakap la gi makan.. dah lama aku takder org tanya kau gi maner... terasa cam budak kecik plak... anyway dia tak kesah pun..... lepas aku mandi sumer.. aku pasang VCD citer PLU dlm bilik aku... aku tak sempat tengok lagi.. baru sampai pagi tadi thru post..

tapi bukan la citer blue. aku order thru internet for the 1st time. cam tak caya jer biler vcd tu sampai umah... aku beli citer PLU ni best siot....tajuk dia LAN YU, BISHONEN dgn lagi satu aper tah.. citer dia memang menarik dan menggangu perasaan. kira jiwang abih siot tengok citer tu... kalau korang tak caya.. korang tengok sendiri especially LAN YU... nak aku citer sinopsis dia ker??? esok aku citer ... tgh ngantuk la.... ok cu .. heee macam ader org baca jer weblog aku ni.....anyway kalau ader tinggalah korangyer weblog gak. so that i can follow... tapi kalau takder org baca pun aku pedulik aper... saper yg baca tq. citer LAN YU ni nanti aku citer ok... tunggu esok.... bye

2003-08-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

penat aku surfing my fav. blog... sumer kurang update...rase boring plak tetiba... yer la macam takder mood.... sebenarnya i quite busy and i guess everybody also thats why sumer macam lambat jer update their blog.. except nizam tgh gi holiday hehehhe.... anyway penang memang best.. yer la dah kg... mesti promote la per lagi kan... tapi one thing for sure in penang ppl really mix well. the malays, indians and also chinese... my relatives over there.. almost everybody can speak chinese... some very fluent but some ok jer lah.. at least they can interact well... same with tamil language....kat KL ni susah skit nak cari environment camtu.... i think it happens in small town.. becoz ppl seems to know everybody and very friendly. isnt that cool....

KL hemmmm just dont care attitude is everywhere.. who cares? i think myself also not excluded. i live in KL since small.. born in GH...so i only know KL and the ppl.... but whatever it is i love KL.... heheheh....the pollution, traffic jam and all the happening things happen around i love it... whenever i go to kg or small town tetiba rasa macam mati kutu.....hehehhe... i better stop here.... macam berlagak jer bunyinyer hahahah....yg penting just enjoy your surronding....dont wait until its too late....

aku takder subjek nak citer hari ni... tapi ader satu subjek aku tak leh elak or any single person ......subjek KAHWIN.....aku kira consider muda lagi la...tak sampai no 3 lagi angka depan tu.... tapi it seems that all your friends are getting married and beranak, and your relatives has start asking... WHEN? BILA LAGI?........bila tu aku tak kesah sgt, itu sumer boleh di adjust tapi lagi satu soalan tu yg tak tahan tu.. yg tak leh nak jawab sampai sekarang.....DENGAN SAPE? WHO?.......camner tu... awek pun takder lagi.... nak kena bersungguh-sungguh ker mencari....tak tau la...org kata take things easy...it will comes sooner or later....tapi bila?.... member pompuan aku ader buat lawak.... dia kata “kalau ko takde calon awek/bini lagi sampai sekarang ada 2 kemungkinan......1. mungkin belum diketemukan lagi atau belum sampai... 2. ko dah terlepas” TIDAKKKKKK...... kalau no 1 kira ok la tapi kalau no 2........ ti dakkkkkkk. mungkinkah dah terlepas... bila aku flashback rase ader la 2 3 awek yg minat kat aku hehehhe... tapi cam tak sesuai jer....takkan aku nak main pilih jer.... rase cam takder chemistry la.... yg aku berkenan dah lambat plak......abih tu camno....nanti org kata aku ni memilih la plak... tapi takkan tak nak pilih plak..... tak sesuai la yer tak.......abih tu biler main muka tutup ngan bantal ker hahhahahahha......aku rase dilema ni sumer org rase selagi tak kawin.....kesimpulannya kawin la cepat.......tapi bila pikir-pikir....adakah KAWIN jalan penyelesaian segala masalah....kadang-kadang lepas kawin lagi banyak masalah yer tak?......apa kata korang yg bujang.... dah sedia utk kawin? dah ada calon?......kalau dah sedia semuanya eloklah segera kawin.... hehehheehheh.... kurang maksiat.... hehheheh wassalam....

2003-08-18T17:38:00.000+08:00

Gersang ? pernah kegersangan anda memberi kesan pada aspek kehidupan anda yang lain seperti kerjaya ? well it happens to me last few weeks. for such a long time my sex life is very boring. i cannot even focus in my job. always looking for excuses and not productive enough. last time, when i feel gersang i have somebody to be with...but now he was not in KL anymore and cannot be contacted. i really dont know what happen to him actually. so what should i do? Masturbation is last result la. yes its give me pleasure but in a short term period. then u feel gersang again.. oh no..how i wish that somebody is here, well his name is Mark. mana la si Mark ni pegi....
shall i call Zam (read my last entry), ok jer but i will end up masturbate gak. so no point la. hemm i know few PLU friends (chatters) that i’ve been with but all of them seems bz and i also get bored with some of them. but not many la only 2 of them, both bz.......oklah last resort go chat......find someone new who is also gersang....but chatting takes lot of time to find the person that our taste right? takkan nak main belasah jer......

my point here is sometimes when i gersang i really cannot concentrate on my job. i really need somebody. have u ever face that? i really have to keep myself bz in order to forget about that? maybe go gym, or whatever....shall i look for bf? heheheh i dont think so coz i hate commitment at this point... and i dont like all the mushy things.....but if u look the other way around....u wont have multiple sexual partners... which is good and safe. i prefer permanent sexual partner cum friends. no string attach . senang skit. but at this moment its very hard to find one. maybe Mark is one of them. but i already lost him.waiting for him to contact me. he just cannot be contacted i dont know why? shall i find the new one to replace him....to be frank i am so lazy to look for one. how i wish that miracle happen that it would just be more easier.

now i able to drag myself back to the right track.. coz last weekend... hehehhe....but for how long i will be able to stay this way? one week? 2 weeks? i dont know... hopefully until end of this month.........hehehe......i know i got to do something.... i want to go gym i guess....ok tak? any idea ?

2003-08-14T12:17:00.000+08:00

confius? aku kenal ngan dengan zam (bukan nama sebenar) masa universiti. aku ambik course sama dengan dia. dia ni genius tapi jenis malas nak belajar, so kira aku lebih pandai daripada dia. aku ngan dia takdelah best friend ker aper, tapi sebab banyak persamaan dia ngan aku somehow ader la macam connection skit. mungkin antara persamaan tu both of us came from boys school (boarding school) and we were born in KL and stay somewhere nearby. so banyak benda dari segi idea dan pendapat kitorang sering sama. so biler org argue certain things we would combine and agree on same point.

masa kat universiti we decided to stay out of campus, kononnya boring dgn rules n regulation dlm kampus. so dia, aku n beberapa org lagi from same fakulti duduk rumah sewa. here its all began.......dia ni kecik jer orgnya n kerek skit so memang best la member ngan dia. mulanya mcm ni, biler kat rumah tu masa aku tengok tv atau tengah buat kejer especially masa tension nak exam ker aper-aper. dia ni suka kacau aku, aku pun suka kacau dia. ada satu masa tu aku tgh meniarap baca buku, dia tetiba dtg baring atas aku pujuk ajak keluar gi minum. becoz both of us from boys school, kitorang selalu berlagak macam benda-benda ni nothing for us. so bebudak lain pun dah paham. sajer jer kitorang buat budak housemate lain bengang. tapi takderla macam gay plak... kira macam good friend la, like put my hand on his shoulder something like that. tapi yg kelakarnya aku rase rimas kalau org lain buat aku camtu, same to him. sebab aku selalu tolak tgn org lain, dia pun sama.

citer pasal kacau-mengacau ni, disebabkan kitorang selalu kelas sama time. every morning biler nak pergi breakfast, aku takder member lain. so aku selalu kacau dia tido. aku peluk dia, aku buat macam-macam sampai dia nak bangun gi ngan aku breakfast. anyway dia pun nak gi kelas lepas tu. this happen almost every morning. tapi aku pun takder la buat macam tu biler ader my housemate lain plak. nanti diorang ingat lain plak. part tido ni memang aku suka kacau dia......lama-lama macam dah jadi routine aku plak kacau dia tido tak kira mase. yg herannya dia tak kesah plak tu. takde plak dia bangun lepas tu marah aku..... tu yg aku confius tu........aper aku buat masa dia tido tu tak leh la nak citer kat sini..... nanti kena ban plak aku nyer weblog ni hahhaahha.

sekarang aku dah start kejer, dia pun sama. dia dah ada awek, aku masih mencari lagi. since kitorang stay somewhere nearby, so biler boring aku selalu la ajak dia lepak gi minum kat mamak area rumah kitorang. dia pun sama gak, kengkadang dia plak yg ajak aku. since aku stay sorang in my family house, so kira rumah selalu line clear la kan. dari minum, aku ajak dia lepak umah aku tengok movie. dia pun ok jer......kengkadang dia bawak la vcd ker aper. biasa la lepas tengok movie memang selalu tido umah aku terus la, besok baru dia balik. aku pun pernah buat benda yg sama kat umah dia jugak. kira lepak rumah dia plak la. but most of the time umah aku laa.....

tapi yg aku nak citer kat sini, biler lepas tengok movie apa lagi tido la kan. aku seperti biasa bila dia dah tido. aku pun starts la aku punya projek. aku pun peluk dia lah, raba.., rome*....dan macam-macam lagi. kengkadang sampai dia c*m. biler aku buat sumer tu dia cuba tolak aku, tapi kira dlm tido lah. aku pun tak tau dia tido mati ker, takkan tak sedar langsung aper aku buat kat dia.... pelikkan? aku dah buat benda ni since masa universiti lagi. dia suka ker aper aku buat kat dia? naper dia biarkan jer? tapi yg best nyer biler kitorang bangun pagi, macam tak berlaku apa-apa jer. kalau dia tak suka, naper dia still agree dtg umah aku? takkan aku nak tanya ko rase aper-aper tak mlm tadi? hahahah kelakar betul. even till now our relationship is still the same.....as for me, aku memang suka kacau dia tido... sometimes aku harap dia sedar bila aku kacau dia dan tanya aku “wei aper ko buat ni?” kira macam kantoi la. but it never happen till now....anyway i really enjoy lepak ngan dia. tapi takder la sampai jiwang-jiwang plak.. sori tu takde in my dictionary yet. maybe both of us enjoy accompany each other kot. tapi yg pelik tapi benar tu... takkan la tak sedar , ye takk...? hahahahha

2003-08-11T16:59:00.000+08:00

Hairanla, kenapa manusia mesti ada perasaan hasad dengki (PHD)? tak paham betul? especially melayu ni? tak boleh ker tengok org lain berjaya? apa salahnya kalau bantu membantu? kan lebih mudah kalau kita sama-sama berjaya.? kalau kita tak boleh tengok org berjaya dan sentiasa nak jatuhkan org, macam mana kita nak berjaya? tak paham betul..... pernah tak korang alami keadaan org busuk hati dengan korang? yang bestnyer korang tak tau aper la yang dia bengang kat korang. kita plak yang kena melakukan siasatan apasal dia bengang ngan kita. siasat punya siasat punyalah remeh masalah tu, tapi cara dia bengang dan buat kat kita macam besok nak kiamat. hemm tak paham betul.
anyway kalau korang ada masalah ngan orang camni, BERWASPADALAH. jgn buat tak tau jer. ALERT. bukan aper, kadang-kadang kita underestimate org macam ni. diorang kengkadang melakukan something yang di luar dugaan kita. sometimes u have TO BE CRUEL, TO BE KIND. be more creative and strategize your plan of action. hehehh.
biler korang dah buat semua tu.just rilex n take it easy n dont forget to enjoy your life. ini akan membuatkan diorang tu lagi bengang. anyway jgn concentrate sgt kat org-org camni. buang mase jer. banyak kejer lain lagi... ye tak...yg mesti selalu kita ingat WHAT WE GIVE, WE GET BACK. oleh itu selalulah kita buat sesuatu dengan ikhlas, dan sepenuh hati tanpa mengharapkan balasan. kurangkan ungkit-mengungkiti. just let loose..
ok.....

sebenarnya aku nak citer lain, tetiba dpt mesej jahat from somebody yg i dont know kenapa dia bengang sgt ngan aku. i never bother about him pun b4. kadang-kadang manusia ni sering lupa kebaikan org, lebih ingat akan kejahatan org. 100 org tu buat baik, dia tak ingat. tapi sekali org tu tersilap/ jahat ingat sampai mati. isnt that easier just erase that 1 mistake n remember the 100 good things.....

just a thought......

2003-08-09T19:11:00.000+08:00

i just read nizam punya blog about the interview dengan SM sultan muzaffar. it gives a new fresh idea about blog. well for me, even nizam cakap some blog is about journal and personal. it seems boring for him. for me its not. as for me blog jurnal base is like a novel or story book. instead of reading novel, we read a true story about life and maybe we can learn from it. i agreed the the way its written is not so good. but it is not important, as long as the message or the story is precise and clear. just keep it up guys. i did follow some blog jurnal.

the interview also give an idea about the direction of my blog. well i have figure out that i am going to write about what i like such as arts, motivation, life, psychology, thats what i can think about at this moment. as for me, in our daily lives sometimes we forget the minor but important things in our lives. we are just to bz with our work till we forget to about what happen to the world and ppl surround us.
today i come across an incident that tell me how important for us to deliver what we promise. ada dlm hadis atau al quran menyebut " ciri-ciri org munafik ialah apabila dia berjanji dia mungkiri, apabila dia berkata-kata, dia berbohong, apabila di beri amanah dia khianati."
. i always use that to irritate or when i am angry when somebody lie, broke promise or betray. it works u know. its really strong words. give it a try guys. have u ever been betrayed? lie? or somebody break promise?

i think thats all for now. i wanna go watching AKADEMI FANTASIA . cu then. if anybody read my blog. pls email me at boyaniz@yahoo.com for comments. ok
cu then

2003-08-08T00:34:00.000+08:00

today i went out with my 2 best galfriend. such a long time we have not met since one of them get married. another one will get married end of this year. well that left me alone. talking about marriage, i have not found the right gal for me yet. will there be 1 for me??? am i too choosy. the truth is sometimes after i met gal that i like i always underestime myself. i afraid that i am not up to the standards. but now i know that i have to change. i just waiting for the right gal. hemmm is waiting is the right word or should i searching?? but if i try too hard, the things would go further. i will just sit n relax, i believe insyaallah the time will come........

i mention about weblog to my 2 friends. surprisingly one of them also a follower of one of the bloggers. she ask what is mine. i dare not say coz i afraid she might know everything about me. even we have been bestfriend for such along time... i am not ready to reveal anything to anybody i know... is it fair to both of them??? As for me this blog is like my personal journal. so ppl i know should not know about it. as for the readers is ok coz they dont know me. even they know me later. its ok coz they know the real me based on my blog. but if my friends know about this, they may find out something new about me that may not be acceptable for them. i dont want them to know about it. i want them to know me as they expected. not more than that.....
is that ok????

boring nyerrrr. apa nak buat yer.....tido lah....

2003-08-07T10:38:00.000+08:00

at 1st i so lazy to write in my blog coz i dont know who will read it anyway. but when tee-kay mail me. hemm at least theres some 1 read my blog. well i have to admit that i still learning about this blog on how to make it looks like u guys blog. if u guys out there can teach me how or tell where to find the info i would really appreciate. just mail me ok.

today i wake up late, i did not go to the office coz my appt is somewhere near my house. so i just take my breakfast at the stall nearby.theres nothing much interesting lately. i was bored chatting, coz many ppl lie in there.cakap str8 act, biler jumpa hampeh... so i seldomly met any chatters. maleh nak get frustrated.

to be frank i feel really lonely, coz i stay alone in my family house. so apa lagi ngan komputer jer lah most of the time biler kat umah. tu yg macam-macam jadik tu. yelah dlm internet ni apa yg takder. sumer pun ada.ye tak?

i think my life is about work n computer/internet. i think i have to look for new hobby/activity lah. any suggestion? learn n write in the blog is one of them now. but i need more than that arr. i think i want to go gym la. hati nak join tapi badan macam malas jer hahahhah. mungkin takder member kot. i better look for something new to try la..........

2003-08-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

enuf about akademi fantasia, lets see whos the winner this week the finale. anyway for me everybody did a very good job last week. just now ada org tabligh dtg umah. aku ingat saper memula tadi. bila bukak pintu rupanya org tabligh. diorang tanya parents aku. aku cakaplah aku tinggal sorang. so aper lagi kena la dgr tazkirah from diorang kat depan pintu. rase bersalah plak tak jemput masuk dlm umah. tapi takut lama pulak nanti. so aku pun dengar ceramah tu kat depan pintu rumah aku. last sekali tetiba dia ajak aku gi masjid sembahyang isyak jemaah. aku dgn segan-segan menjawab lain kali lah bang yer... diorang pun tak paksa lagi .... lepas tu diorang pun blah.. anyway diorang dtg 3 org. one of them is my schoolmate.senior i guess.. bukan kenal sgt tapi pernah nampak kat sekolah dulu laa...
aku bukan anti org tabligh ni. aku cukup respect kat diorang ni. bukan mudah utk melakukan dakwah secara terus menerus pada org ni. aku sure diorang ni terima macam-macam cabaran daripada org. pada aku ia merupakan salah satu dakwah yg agak agresif bentuknya. kengkadang kita perlu bergerak secara agresif untuk mencapai satu tujuan.
sesekali terima org tabligh ni, aku rase macam sgt hina dan berdosa kat dunia ni. sebab bila tengok muka diorang aku dpt rasakan ketenangan dan cahaya keimanan yg allah berikan.
pada aku, aku ingin membantu diri aku sendiri dahulu sebelum menyampaikan dakwah kepada org lain. aku lebih suka bergerak secara subversif. bukan aku taknak expose diri tapi aku lebih suka membantu mereka yg melakukan dakwah itu sendiri dpd aku melakukannya. insyaallah suatu hari nanti aku dpt membantu.
insyaallah

2003-07-31T01:58:00.000+08:00

these days ppl always talk about AKADEMI FANTASI. so i also want to give some comment about it. as 4 me whatever decision whose in or out is not important. the most important, is the quality of each contestant to bring the best of themselves in their performance. of course all these help by the professional lecturer in the AKADEMI itself. that is why i like to watch it, coz everybody is trying to use what they learn to sing best as they can. so theres no more like 'cheap' performance. most of them act professionally on they stage. keep it up. these r what we are looking for in our music industry. entertainer and singer that can really sing. isnt it? anybody agree with me? but i think if these contestant came from music school it would be better. bcoz they have a music background. maybe the can play some musical instrument and create their own song. hemmm would be more challenging i guess. orait la. lets see whose out this week. personally i prefer liza to be out. coz she does not really show powerful performance and serious enough. lets seee...
adios

2003-07-22T20:57:00.000+08:00

just now i watch isu khas on homosexual on buletin utama, well the 1st guy really say something too good to be true for all the PLU. u can lie to anybody, but u cannot lie to yourself. thats the problem... everybody wanna to be born normal but somehow rather we have that weird feeling towards same sex. whose false or who to blame is not the point. As for me, life is too short to worry about all this. just enjoy life do what u want to do but just make sure u dont hurt anybody or urself. the most important is urself. nobody love or care u more than urself. so just be urself the rest can go to hell. what ppl think is not important as long as we know what we do and responsible of action that we take. lastly just always remember TUHAN orait... he always be there as long as u doa ok... may ALLah bless u guys does not matter what is your sexuality...

2003-07-22T20:27:00.000+08:00

well this is my third time i write in my weblog ni, but still studying about the features. enuf about that. i really enjoy reading other ppl weblog. its really fun and enjoyable.i feel quite tense these few days due to work. so i got to rilex 1st b4 i continue writing. i dont have the mood to write at this moment just love to read.

2003-07-17T00:23:00.000+08:00

hemm aku tak tau ader org baca ker aper yg aku tulis ni, tapi biarlah janji aku dpt express feeling ni. tadi aku receive call from chatters ni ajak aku kuar. tapi dah lewat sgt malas aku nak keluar dah. he offer dtg umah aku. ishhh aku dah gelabah ni. karang lain plak jadi. but he sounds ok. aku pun tak kesah sgt kawan aper salahnya. kalau ok maybe more hahahahha
but anyway now i a bit selective, i dont simply met any chatters. most of the time i play safe means lebih baik tak yah jumpa dpd jumpa kalau tak taste. buang mase jer.especially kalau jumpa yg patah ni. takdelah aku ni high taste sgt. but some totally out of context hahahah
aku as long as str8 act kire ok la.
aku still belajar pasal blogger ni, if anybody can read this mail pls teach me some ok

2003-07-16T00:53:00.000+08:00

dak pukul 12 lebih aku masih tak leh tido, aku tetiba rase hooked dengan internet sekarang ni. nak chat macam bosan jer, sumer look 4 sex, boringgggg, takkan nak tengok hari-hari gambar blue.. giler aper. aku tgh cari something new here, search punya search jumpa nizam punyer blog, aku tak paham mulanya aper benda sumer ni, even till now. but i feel hemm good place to express feeling, so why not lets try it. banyak lagi aku kena belajar lagi pasal ni. saper yg terbaca akunyer aper dia pangiil ni website blogger aku ni, ajar ler sesikit ok. banyak term masih aku tak tau.tak kesah lah i will learn.

just love to share my thought n feeling here. awal mlm tadi macam bnayak idea nak citer, tapi dah lewat mlm ni dah ngantuk, maybe lepas ni aku leh cite macam-macam lagi. sekarang ni aku minat betul lagu datuk sm salim n sheila majid. lirik catchy abis. sempoi jer lagu tu. dengar lah lagu tu easy listening. oklah takat ni jer lah, maybe 2morrow i can share more. to anybody out there that can teach me few things to manage my bloggers, you are most welcome.
bye
adios

2003-07-16T00:31:00.000+08:00

well this is my 1st time try blogger ni, i will start my story later